quite the shock waves coming through, as a lot of shit comes to ahead...

[magical thyme]

and I often find when the shit roils up in my life, then it's just a short time before I see it happening "out there," be it earthquakes or more mass shootings, or riots. So this is just a heads up.

I dreamed last night about my parents. I was an adult in school in a dorm or hotel room where I had beautifully maintained, raised garden beds (unlike my weedy messes irl, lol) filled with little baby plants. My parents had an adjoining room. My mother was in my room, silent and pretty emotionless, and then left for the adjoining room. My father started trampling through the garden beds and ranting at me his mantra about how I "rueeened everything." For the first time in my life I pushed back, in his face screaming "yeah, well you rueeened everything for me, too." My beds were trampled, seedlings pulled out and ruined. I stopped short of screaming that he killed my boy, but I was just stopping just short of it. The words were there.

And then he was yelling because the hotel had cancelled their adjoining room and how much trouble he'd gone to to get that room for my mother. And then they were both gone. I think (hope?) for good.

When I woke up, all I could think about were my destroyed seedlings and how they crapped all over every opportunity I had in life.

And then I woke up and learned that Cantor lost the primary in a major upset and his concession speech was followed by a demonstration at the hotel by protestors yelling for amnesty NOW.

I was feeling really good and relieved, and then more rage came simmering up about my toxic passive-aggressive bully of a boss who harassed me last year and ruined my 60th birthday plans. About my right to say "no" and have that respected and my right for my personal and private information to remain just that.