Hikikimori

[moriah]

2. I am very lucky that my current roommate is willing to do as much as he is.

I'm pretty desperate to find money, as I have to have a cell phone at the very least... I found that there are a ton of secret shopper jobs, that would pay enough if I did enough of them to even pay my car payment. But even though I registered for the site, I can't bring myself to register for a single one, even though one would just be going to pretend that I was in the market for a new car at a dealership. There are 6 like that in my area, if I did those alone it'd pay for my phone and some to go for food or my car payment or car insurance. Just. Six. Outings.

And I don't think I can do it. Nor is it really fair to ask people to go with me. Yes, my roommate does all the shopping for us. He tries to make me go with him so that I will get out of the house. When I'm with my boyfriend, he likes to go shopping too. Just accompanying him for those activities is extremely stressful. By myself....

I'm so sorry hon.