i've gotten permission to post a pm that was sent to me earlier, about first world problems for some

[seabeyond]

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women on du. this would be the second post that i have received today from women hurting, on du, by the dismissal of women. for some on du this is all a big game and they are the loudest on the threads with faux outrage, and the OPs, that were generated by men who battle feminist, that were meant to be a slap in the face to women on du. and others willingly jumped on board for their own personal reasons. and then some were brought in totally unaware of the dynamics and what was really going on. being used in the dishonesty. and in the process very real women are being hurt, there first world problems so casually dismissed. this would be the duer, a friend, a good person, that has so been effected by just another day of games for some.

Typing this to you because I can't do it publicly.

There is a thread in GD that just has my hands shaking.

First world problems. I grew up with a heroin addicted mother and a father who raped me and beat me to near death for over twelve years. And that's just the shit that happened to me at home. I was raped another dozen times over my life because the folks that gravitated around my mother's house were really fucked up people and well, there is just so so much to my story. Never told it and probably never will. But when I saw that post in GD I felt like someone was making a joke about my life. First world problems. Like women aren't raped and beaten to death in first world countries.

Yea, my life is roses now compared to then. I admit that. I'm over 50 now and that seems to make a huge difference in men not treating me like i'm just a fuck toy now. That doesn't take away what I feel inside every single day. The past that I have to live with. I know hell. I've been raped. I've been beaten. I've been kidnapped. I've been left for dead. I've been homeless. I've had to sell my blood just to eat. <i took out three sentences. she felt they could identify her to some.> And don't you fucking interfere and say different or you'll be publicly shamed and humiliated and told that your past is trivial.


This is more than I wanted to type. But I had to get it out before I went off in that thread and got myself banned. You know I won't sit down and shut up, but I'm not like XXXXX, I can't blurt my story out. Not around here. No way. No how.

I used to write really angry poetry:

Slapped when she's born
Her virginity torn
An eight year old's dreams
ripped apart at the seams

Boys treat her like toys
that light up and make noise
and even the heroine on heroin
doesn't know where she's been.

Mothers die, fathers lie, and little girls cry.

~~~~


That's the kind of shit that used to burn inside of me. But yea. First world problems.

Talk me down. Before I jump!

The lies, the misrepresentations, the taunting. All of it has put me so deep into a depression and I can't seem to explain it to my family. That's why I spend maybe ten to fifteen minutes a day here lately. It's about all I can take. <another sentence taken out>. I don't want to feel this way and let them win.

lets remember. this started with games, that men who are pissed at women speaking out played, to jab at us. and it escalated to this. for games.

edit to add. i had started reading the OP of first world problems and stopped at the dishonesty or lie, comparing the protester to a stripper. not only did i not read the whole Op, sure it was full of bullshit and would be expressed in a manner to best serve clifford, i did not read the thread. so i was totally unaware what this duer was talking about.