My son committed suicide 1/27--he was 25 years old

[Jilly_in_VA]

24. I am so, so sorry

I lost my son to suicide 6 years ago. Here is what I know. IT IS NOT YOUR FAULT. That'a the big thing. He had more internal pain than he could reasonably deal with. You couldn't help him, no matter what you did. I know that sounds stark and terrible, but he had far more pain than you could see. I know that now about my own child's pain. We all tried, but it wasn't enough. Sometimes they get in a dark place and we can't love them out of it. Sadly, love isn't always enough. Professional help is often what's needed, and they can't see it, or sometimes can't get to it soon enough, which is what happened to my son. Your son is free of his pain now, but what he can't see is the pain he left you with. That's the hard part. Forgive yourself. You tried.

Holding you close.