Anyone else feel exceptionally...

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6. *snort*

"worry soap" I love that!


and YES, to all the above... weird dreams, bad moods, funk!

This week is all screwy with thew holiday in the middle too...some people took mon/tues off, some took thurs/fri...so the whole jobsearch has gone to shit. Then there's this client who managed to screw me over last month (ironically, she's the pres of the chamber of commerce up here too) and she dropped me like a hot potato after I sent her a written contract and invoice for the work I have been doing for her... after 3 months of puffing me up and telling everyone how great I am...crickets. and NO check in the mail either. I have been nothing BUT professional and polite and yet I want to call her and tell her just what I think of her.... not to mention she is a shit talker, so now i am sure she is talking shit just as much as she was praising me a month ago.
I want to continue freelancing, but I think I am losing my edge...and feel like my small little town has turned on me in some way. So here I am searching for a "real job" once more, (and considering moving to a bigger town)...but I really don't wanna do that either because i LIKE being in charge of my own schedule, not taking a drug test, and all the bs that comes with corporate life (not to mention the stress of moving, the kids, daycare, etc).... but I need to make some money cuz I am sick of dealing with struggle.

stuck in the muck... that's a good term for what I feel right now