MOL, I am getting some messages for you

[Manifestor_of_Light]

2. thanks for the suggestions! That's pretty much what I've decided.

Read Art in America(which inspires me), The New Yorker, my books I got for xmas, and do my art and music.

At Walmart, I was NOT talking loudly. The person who told me to shut up was NOT an employee. An employee would not have been allowed to say anything about their employee staffing.

It was another customer that told me to shut up. And I know that Walmart will never listen to anything a customer says, or do anything about it. They will not change anything.

There was a massive sex discrimination class action lawsuit filed against them and the Supremes said that they could continue to discriminate against women.

I have yet to see a rightwinger come up with a coherent reason for their beliefs. It's all about "faith" and gullibility. They believe everything Fox News tells them, and their gun nut networks. You cannot have a reasoned discussion with them. I went to law school so this is frustrating. All I can do is walk away. They are loud and obnoxious.

I argue with them about the Bible, and I graduated from a Christian university(Presbyterian) with Christian professors who taught very deep religion courses. All the religion professors had gone to Harvard and Princeton, but an idiot who believes everything a half-assed preacher who went to a crummy Bible-thump college says wouldn't believe me anyway.

You have hit it exactly: "treat your inner thoughts and feelings like precious jewels".

Freddie Nietzsche said, "If you value your thoughts, why do you speak them aloud?"

He also said, "What are laws to Sons of God?"

Hubby has a copy of Beyond Good and Evil. He started reading it years ago when he was trapped in a marriage to an idiot and a town full of idiots (tulsa). He eventually got a divorce and ran off screaming.

One of the guys in the book club started arguing with me about the "if you value your thoughts" quote via email. He speaks German and has read Nietzsche in the original German. I was not going to argue with someone who was telling me he was superior because he reads German. So I stopped talking to him. He was the only person I have met that I could discuss opera and classical music with. The people in the book club are shallow.

I have met a couple of people that at first I thought were truly educated but found out later that they hold some very backwards ideas. Like a lady with a math degree, works at a bank, also studied Latin, who believes in creationism but "doesn't want to talk about it".

And another one I met at the junior college where I take my welding class, who works in the front office, and was talking about how stupid kids are and how important it is to get an education. Then she said "Those damnyankees should just stay home." I thought, "OK, she's 150 years behind the times and never got over the Civil War. And I'm one-half damnyankee, my dad was from Northeast Ohio and grew up on the shores of Lake Erie. He came to Texas because he was tired of shoveling snow."

The ones that sound reasonable at first --it's sneaky. Baffles me.

I'm surprised nobody's bombed the local movie theater for showing "Lincoln" this week.

We have 4 outside cats. It's been quite cold for the past week and they stay in the patio at night. I talk to them and pet them. And they don't argue with me. Then I go inside and wash my hands and arms and put benadryl gel on them as I am very allergic to cats and dogs. I wheeze and cough too sometimes. (((sigh)))

So I talk to the cats and tell them they're sweet kitties (even when they crap outside the litter box).

Their names are Figaro(B&W like the kitten in Pinocchio, he's a real beauty), Arabella, Tosca and Faust. You'd never know i'm into opera, wouldja???

A bit of selfdiagnosis on the internet, I think I have social anxiety disorder with depression. I'm not shy, never have been, just afraid to speak around people who don't share my values. Put me in the city around artists and classical musicians or theater people, and I'm fine.