Been away awhile ... but something weird happened today ...

[Myrina]

... well not weird, really, when one thinks in Universal terms.

I'm contracting in IT at an enormous company, a job I hate. I took it despite a disastrous interview & bad vibes all around because it pays $8/hr more than I was making. Yep, I was lured by dollar signs.

I couldn't shake the feeling of 'don't do this" when mulling the options, and cried when I gave my notice at the other one, but came here and have tried for 4 months to make the best of it.

It's been MISERABLE. No training. Nobody talks/socializes. Many glitches in the system/dead ends. I have absolutely no clue what the hell is going on and have given up asking for help or additional work to do because nobody responds to my emails.

We had a meeting this morning to finalize the migration for Thursday and less than an hour after the meeting, my supervisor IM's me & says he has an urgent ticket that we HAVE TO migrate TODAY. Which means I have to set the whole thing up, on my own, which I've not done before (urgents require different steps/approvals than regulars).

I took a quick break to run to lunch and on my walk to the car, looked toward the sky and asked the Universe to PLEASE GET ME OUT OF HERE.

An hour later, I got a phone call from my previous consulting gig, letting me know that they just got awarded a contract with the state (to help implement ACA) and they'd love to have me back, how much/what bene's do I need to say 'yes'? My resume needs to be reviewed by the contractee (the State Medicare/Medicaid office) so it's not a done deal, but I have hope.

I've gone from hair-pulling despair this morning, to being able to breathe this afternoon.

It amazes me how the Universe does this, just when I need it most ... and on the other hand, I know I should have more faith and not let myself get into such a depressed end-of-my-rope panic. And then on the other-other hand, I scold myself for ignoring all the signs and taking this job in the first place.

Anyway.