I've been diagnosed with stage four terminal cancer

[SonofDonald]

60. I've already told all family members

That I’m going to check out my way if possible, I was the only family member present when my Uncle, my second father passed away, I was working at Lewis/McChord base near Tacoma when the family contacted the army to let them know what was going on, when I arrived his section of the family had already been there all night

They were tired and hungry, so they left me there and went to get something to eat, my uncle deep down had realized that the entire family had been to see them even though he was in agonal breathing at the time

I held him as he passed and told him what he needed to hear and he passed this was July 2008


My father had a stroke right in front of me as I had just retired I was living with him to keep a watch on him as he was getting forgetful then, and my mom had just gotten back surgery and had complications, when I got her home I cared for two invalids by myself for two months, he then lived another two years, 18 months on home hospice

My brother in law and best friend came down with cancer, he passed in 2012

His wife, my little Sister got cancer right after that and I had to follow her wishes and unplug her from the machines in 2015, they wanted her fourteen year old Son to do so, I told them that wasn’t happening and it was my responsibility

It broke my heart when I fulfilled her wish

The same year my moms younger brother came down with an exotic cancer, he was a nuclear power plant operator back east, he passed in 2016

Then both sons of my uncle/father got sick and passed in 2018 and 2019 respectively leaving me as the oldest male member of my family

That’s seven family members in 7 years, one after another

The real problem is that my 87 year old mother has already lost her Husband, her Daughter, her little brother and now maybe me

I’ve watched too many pass away suffuring and not even knowin their names, where they are or what’s going on

I’ll keep fighting but when it’s hopeless then I’m going to choose my own way out

With a smile on my face and love in my heart

Not laying in a bed lost to the world like I watched happen to my Father, I can’t do that to myself

❤️