You said this morning you were going to find a meeting. Have you done that? Did you go? When is your next meeting? How will you get there? Do you already know anyone in meetings? Contact them if you do.
You drank to fall asleep ("I drank until I passed out and if I woke up in the middle of the night, I’d pour another."
Don't be surprised if you don't know how to fall asleep. Don't worry no one died from lack of sleep when you're tired enough you'll drift off. In the meantime read a book (the big book is a good start), play mahjong online, watch videos of sign language, who cares just don't drink. You might have some tired days (in my case months) ahead of you. That's why there is coffee at meetings. I learned how to fall asleep now if it takes more than fifteen minutes for me to conk out I get up. It's ok I try again later and fall asleep.
You've mentioned that you're going to walk more, socialize more, whatever more. Getting sober is all about getting sober. I didn't get sober to save my job/girlfriend/spouse/family/bullshit/bullshit/bullshit. That shit doesn't work for me. When I got sick and tired of being sick and tired I got sober. You hit bottom when you stop digging.
You are moving towards a drink or you are moving away from a drink but no matter for me a drink is only so far away. When I first walked into the rooms 32 years 8 months and 29 days ago my drink was a 500lb block of cement on a heavy chain. I kept going dragging that shit. I moved away from it never towards it. As time went on that cement block wore down. One day it was 499lbs. and et cetera. Today it is a helium balloon on a one pound fishing line but it is still there. I know I've got more drunks in me but I don't know if I have another sobriety so Imma hang on to this one for as long as I can.
Did you take a drink today? If not then when tomorrow comes do what you did today. Don't drink. If you haven't found a meeting DM your zip code I'll find one. Happy hour is a waste of time go to a meeting. Go out for coffee afterwards. Be somewhat selfish with your time and get fucking sober. Go to meetings and spend time with the people who know how to be sober. If you're the tweeker in the room talk to those who are calm. Find those who know how to be sober and not relapse. Do what they do.
The goal is the goal and the goal is sobriety. Being sober lets me be a worker among workers and a friend among friends. Just remember if you think you have a problem with alcohol you probably do. People who don't have a problem don't think about it. When I was 3 years sober that was the longest I had been sober in my life. Now there are people who would never dream that Alpeduez21 was a blackout alcoholic pissing himself in an alley.
Getting sober is simple. Might not be easy but it is simple.
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