Almost 5 years sober and there are still things I don't do

[Hugh_Lebowski]

4. Totally remember those conversations ... back in 2010 when I was sober and my (now) ex-wife was not.

Now I'm back 'out' and wish I'd put my foot down a tad more often in that sort of regard. She often guilted me into going with her to situation I knew were going to be hard for me and one of the TOP ONES ... was parties where it was mostly people I didn't know.

In fact one of those that I HAD to go to with her was what broke a 3 year stint. I mean, it was the cliffs of La Jolla at like a $10M mansion overlooking the ocean that had it's own freaking arboretum on the grounds, so I did want to go, but felt I really shouldn't to protect my sobriety. She was not understanding.

Funnily enough, she's now in AA and over 1 year sober, and I've barely drawn a sober breath in 2.5 years.

Stick to your guns my friend, that's all I can say. Stick to your guns, and keep on keeping on!

Then again, looking back ... this pic is just moments before I messed up. How was I supposed tell my wife, no, you go alone to the La Jolla Cliffside Wedding, I can't handle it and if your pissed off, then sorry? I WANTED to go, and stay sober. But I failed. And it was a couple years before I was sober again.