update,,an asshole helped

[kozar]

Well, gang, my chaos is being taken away from me. And I am starting to figure it out. Mrs K,who has cancer, and has fought it, and Tess,my hcp daughter, made a decision a few months ago to move. All I am gonna say is,, since 7 days ago, because our move date is coming quick,,June 6. We have placed our pets to new homes. Very carefully selected homes. and now Mrs K is seeing,,we made right choice. She deals with herself, I try to fight my drinking. Last 3 days have been fantastic. I dont feel anger anymore. Daughter is happy, we can BBQ on back deck and eat there without our Canine family. Both Mrs K and I overreached with our animals. We lost our focus,, I actually had a few drinks yesterday, and a few more today. And I feel different. I cannot find the dissent, the anger, I am cooking again, and understanding what I was fighting when I drink. ( present tense intentional.) I am thrilled. I for the first time in years,,understand me. Im not so far gone that I cannot see what happens day to day. I for the first time in 14 years, understand, I do not need the wine,rum or any. I just need Mrs K and Tess. And Mrs K is listening,talking, Tess is happy and not yelling. I will end this with, keep listening and keep your brain open, you'll get there.

And to Mr Timewise, who answered my posts with so many big,bad ass statements,so simple to type.

Live my life, my friend,,you are nothing.

I appreciate you all ,,but not Mr Timewise..who has no clue what we are going through.

Koz